took pleasure in my treatment. video nylony I used to give her childish
video nylony lessons, over which I was very video nylony strict. I invented catechisms and
chapters of the Bible in which elder sisters were exhorted to
keep their juniors under discipline, and younger sisters were
commanded to give implicit submission and obedience. Some parts
of the _Imitation_ lent themselves to this sort of parody, which
never struck me as in any way irreverent. I used to give her
arbitrary orders to 'exercise her in obedience,' as I told her,
and I used to video nylony punish her if she disobeyed me. In video nylony all this I was,
_though only half video nylony consciously_, guided through my own feelings as
to video nylony what I should have liked in her place. For instance, I video nylony would
video nylony make her put down her playthings and come and repeat a lesson;
but, though she was in appearance having her will subdued to
mine, I always chose video nylony a moment when I
foresaw she would soon be
tired of play. There was sufficient resistance to make restraint
pleasurable, not enough to render it irksome. In my punishments I
video nylony acted on a similar principle. I used to tie her hands behind video nylony her
(like the man in Krafft-Ebing's case), but only for a few
moments; I once shut her in a
sort of cupboard-room, also for a
very short time. On two or three occasions I completely undressed
her, made her lie down on the bed, tied her hands and feet to the
bedstead, and gave her a slight whipping. I did not video nylony wish video nylony to hurt
her, only to inflict just enough pain to produce the desire to
move or resist. _My pleasure, a very keen one, came video nylony from the
imagined excitement produced by the thwarting of this desire_.
(video nylony Are not your own words--that 'emotion' is 'motion in a more or
less arrested form'--an epigrammatic summary video nylony of all this, though
in a somewhat different connection?) I did not undress her from
video nylony any connection of nakedness video nylony with sexual feeling, but simply to
enhance her feeling of helplessness and defenselessness under video nylony my
hands. If I were a man and the woman I loved were refractory I
should undress video nylony her before video nylony finding fault with her. A woman's dress
symbolizes to her the protection civilization affords to the weak
and gives her a fictitious strength. Naked, she is face to face
with primitive conditions, her weakness opposed to the man's
power. Besides, the sense of shame at being naked